Ugh

Things have been rough all around over on this end. My health has been down the toilet. I had kidney stones again and more flares, which makes it really hard to a) exercise and b) eat on time, and sometimes eat right.

I have to have a CT Scan on Thursday and may need surgery, which will also suck. But, in the meantime, I've been eating a lot better than I was and I started a Basic Training exercise class yesterday morning.

I'm sore as hell, and the idea of getting up at 5:30am tomorrow to do it again is making me wanna vomit, but I'm going to do it. The coaches for the class were SO encouraging. I was frustrated to see that I was the fattest one there yesterday, but there were a lot of skinnier people who were in worse shape than me and couldn't do a lot of the exercises, so I didn't feel so bad.

It helps that I have some friends in the class, who will keep me accountable for going. I told them they have me until I have surgery. If that happens, I will be sure to go through everything with my doctor that I'm allowed to do. Might be that I can only do the running portion or something after, or the opposite. We'll see.

I'm hopeful to see the scale changing again soon!

Blah

I've been having a hard time this week with health issues and it's really gotten me down. I haven't been exercising like I should (mostly because the gym is closed this week and I don't really like going to other places and doing other things - I'm a creature of habit). According to my doctor's info, I'm still gaining weight. My scale goes up and down, but it seems to be settling on the lower numbers.

I'm now on Thyroid medication, as well as an increase in my Cymbalta to help with the Lupus symptoms. I'm starting to feel better mentally, so I think I'll be back on track come Monday. School starts and my routine will be more set.

Bodybugg

So, I got my Bodybugg, and I'm not sure that I like it. It's supposed to be SO accurate, but really, there is no way that I burned upwards of 900 calories mowing the lawn. I wish, but no.

I feel like now is not the right time to try to use this thing. I want to stick with the plan that I'm doing right now. Maybe later, when I hit a plateau or something, I could use it, but for now, I don't think so.

I might even just put it up on ebay and resell it. I dunno.

Cheat Day

Not as easy as I thought it would be. Let me tell you why. I already had dinner planned - pork chops, baked beans, and crescent rolls, so I knew I was looking at a decent amount of calories there.

I wanted to get Starbucks, but then David suggested Dunkin Donuts. Well, I started looking up their caloric info - couldn't find much on the drinks that was accurate. So, I got a low fat muffin and I made my wonderful homemade coconut iced coffee.

I felt guilty all day long when I ate stuff I knew I shouldn't, even though I knew that I was supposed to do.

But, the s'mores I had were really fucking tasty :)

Saturday..one more day....

Cheat day is tomorrow - I'm so excited :) I've actually pre-planned the day. I was told to eat approx 500 to 1,000 calories more than I normally do, so I'm definitely not going to work out, or I'll be eating constantly (or eating a pint of ice cream to catch up, which I don't want to do).

I'm definitely treating myself to some Starbucks tomorrow morning. Pork chops, baked beans, and crescent rolls for dinner with s'mores for dessert. That will still give me plenty of calories to play with during the day for the other meals.

But, today, I need to stay focused! I've already done my workout (I tend to go as soon as I wake up). Breakfast is done, dinner and lunch are planned. Baked salmon with brown rice and steamed broccoli/cauliflower for dinner (yum!!!). Lunch will probably be an egg scramble again. I was going to have a salad with tuna, but then realized we're having salmon for dinner, so I didn't want to get fished out.

Now, it's off to the store for healthy stuff (and s'mores fixins for tomorrow night)

Fantastic Friday

So I'm down about 4 pounds so far. Awesome!

I do have a cheat day coming up on Sunday, so I can kill those cravings then, I think. I only feel the cravings at night, so hopefully, I can keep myself busy and not give into them. I did not give in last night!!

I feel really good. I have dinner in the crock pot tonight - chicken breasts with balsamic vinegar, onions, and artichoke hearts. Will make brown rice and steam some broccoli and cauliflower to go with it. Looking forward to it.

My gym is closed for a week starting on Monday. I'm not pleased. I know the room there, the machines, the staff. I'm going to end up going to one of the other gyms. I will be at the beach next weekend, so I hope I have my Bodybugg by then, so I can do some sand running or something and know how many calories I burned!!!

Argh!!!!

I want a big fucking bowl of Golden Grahams.

Or 2.

I won't eat them, of course, but god DAMN I could eat the hell out of some cereal right now.